I'm sorry England

Do you remember? The beginning?
You hurt me, you wounded me, you killed me slowly.
But I loved you.

You were a big brother to me, a parent figure. But you didn't love me back.
You hated me. Everything, my very existence. Has your opinion changed, or am I still that convict you made me be?
Am I still the one you hate? The one you wish were never there, slowly hurting you as you tortured me but weren't kind enough to just kill?
I wish you killed me. I wish I weren't here. I never wanted this. I never wanted your mess.
But I loved you.

I'll always be there for you. I hated you, I loved you and I wished you loved me back.
Was I that bad? That much of a low-life vermin I didn't even count as a human? Or were you shielding me from something?
You were never for there for me, you made my life a misery.
But I loved you.

Did the very memory of me torture you? Are you hurt? Are you dead inside?
I want you to be okay. I'll take your pain. It's not your fault, you didn't mean to slowly kill me, did you?
I'll always take your pain. I'll be there for you, I promise, really.
Have I let you down? Am I a failure? Did I meet your expectations?
Do you love me now? Am I your friend? Your family?
I still love you.

Do you love me?